I am new to this so slightly nervous. In 2013 when my husband was diagnosed with early dementia it was a terrible shock to both of us - never having had the condition in my family I was totally at sea as to how to cope. Of course, in the beginning my husband did not acknowledge anything was wrong and most people seeing him in a social environment would never know he had a problem. 2 yrs later it is a very different story and what is so sad is he is not the man I married and has turned into a stranger. The truth is I am no longer in love with him but these feelings were there before the diagnosis. I find caring for him very difficult because of my mixed feelings. I do feel sorry for him that he has dementia but his denial of it and aggressive behaviour towards me makes me wonder what I am doing with him. I never imagined my retirement years to be this miserable. I am a very social person and do have my own life but I feel like I am in a prison. The reason I am writing on this forum is that most people I have come across who have a partner with dementia have been in a long and loving relationship and therefore feel in a different way about caring for them. I feel trapped.