Bit of a ramble....
A year ago, 19th December at 3.15am my wonderful husband, James, died. Years ago his mother gave birth to twin boys on 19th December. Then this morning I woke in the early hours at exactly 3.15! Coincidences? I like to think that he was letting me know all is well and urging me to get on with things and look after myself.
Yesterday I saw a GP because I had a few problems. She requested blood tests and told me that if my neck pain, headache and other aches became worse that I should go to A and E, especially if I had a tingling sensation. Well, Dr Google was accessed and I could have had so many nasty things that my heart plummeted. This morning I thought my skin was itchy and my scalp tingling with a headache thrown in. I decided to go to A and E. The staff were amazing and so organised. Tests were done and examination done. All bloods were good and the Dr said she thought I was suffering with anxiety and stress which is showing in the neck and shoulders! I was embarrassed at wasting time but she said that I had not done that. She referred me for physio. I think James was pointing me towards this, to sort my health out.
It’s been a difficult year , I didn’t think I was stressed but i see now I was. I think overall I am beginning to get things sorted. I am exercising, eating better - lost a stone two more to go, meeting up with friends, rejoining groups etc.
I want to be the healthiest and best version of me that I can whilst enjoying life. I’m hoping to move on with a smile.
last weekend my step daughters and family’s came here and we remembered James , husband, Dad, Father in law, Grandad. It was lovely. Tomorrow I will be going to the north east to spend time with my wonderful Mam who was 94 last week and other family members. Hopefully I will get to relax and go to the beach - not tempted to plodge or join the charity swimmers on Boxing Day! But a brisk walk and a hot chocolate would be perfect.
A year ago, 19th December at 3.15am my wonderful husband, James, died. Years ago his mother gave birth to twin boys on 19th December. Then this morning I woke in the early hours at exactly 3.15! Coincidences? I like to think that he was letting me know all is well and urging me to get on with things and look after myself.
Yesterday I saw a GP because I had a few problems. She requested blood tests and told me that if my neck pain, headache and other aches became worse that I should go to A and E, especially if I had a tingling sensation. Well, Dr Google was accessed and I could have had so many nasty things that my heart plummeted. This morning I thought my skin was itchy and my scalp tingling with a headache thrown in. I decided to go to A and E. The staff were amazing and so organised. Tests were done and examination done. All bloods were good and the Dr said she thought I was suffering with anxiety and stress which is showing in the neck and shoulders! I was embarrassed at wasting time but she said that I had not done that. She referred me for physio. I think James was pointing me towards this, to sort my health out.
It’s been a difficult year , I didn’t think I was stressed but i see now I was. I think overall I am beginning to get things sorted. I am exercising, eating better - lost a stone two more to go, meeting up with friends, rejoining groups etc.
I want to be the healthiest and best version of me that I can whilst enjoying life. I’m hoping to move on with a smile.
last weekend my step daughters and family’s came here and we remembered James , husband, Dad, Father in law, Grandad. It was lovely. Tomorrow I will be going to the north east to spend time with my wonderful Mam who was 94 last week and other family members. Hopefully I will get to relax and go to the beach - not tempted to plodge or join the charity swimmers on Boxing Day! But a brisk walk and a hot chocolate would be perfect.
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