Hi all,
I first joined this group in April 2023, about five months after losing my grandad to a year long battle of dementia and many years of cancer. So many of you offered me kernels of hope with my guilt and my grief then, and I am hoping for something similar now.
Tomorrow will be one year to the day since he passed away. It still knocks the breath out of me every single day and I still struggle with the thought of him not being here. My guilt is still present (if you were on my original thread all those months ago, I hear your advice daily in my head and I am slowly letting go of my guilt as best I can). I am working all day tomorrow in the hopes of making the day pass easier on me, but I was wondering if anyone has any advice for the first anniversary. All day today my heart has just been aching knowing what tomorrow signifies and I know it is just another day, another milestone (I’ve had many this year) to overcome and yet I can’t stop feeling like tomorrow is going to be as devastating as it was a year ago.
How do you move past your loss? I know my grandad would not want me to be this deep in my grief a year later and this was a frequent discussion between me and ‘friends’. I ended my friendships with these people over these discussions (and more but besides the point). Essentially these people believed I should be ‘over’ my grief by now, that I shouldn’t still wake up unable to function sometimes because of the pain of losing him. I just don’t understand how there can be a time limit on grief because for the last year it has felt like it will never ever end and right now it feels that way still.
I first joined this group in April 2023, about five months after losing my grandad to a year long battle of dementia and many years of cancer. So many of you offered me kernels of hope with my guilt and my grief then, and I am hoping for something similar now.
Tomorrow will be one year to the day since he passed away. It still knocks the breath out of me every single day and I still struggle with the thought of him not being here. My guilt is still present (if you were on my original thread all those months ago, I hear your advice daily in my head and I am slowly letting go of my guilt as best I can). I am working all day tomorrow in the hopes of making the day pass easier on me, but I was wondering if anyone has any advice for the first anniversary. All day today my heart has just been aching knowing what tomorrow signifies and I know it is just another day, another milestone (I’ve had many this year) to overcome and yet I can’t stop feeling like tomorrow is going to be as devastating as it was a year ago.
How do you move past your loss? I know my grandad would not want me to be this deep in my grief a year later and this was a frequent discussion between me and ‘friends’. I ended my friendships with these people over these discussions (and more but besides the point). Essentially these people believed I should be ‘over’ my grief by now, that I shouldn’t still wake up unable to function sometimes because of the pain of losing him. I just don’t understand how there can be a time limit on grief because for the last year it has felt like it will never ever end and right now it feels that way still.