Hi everybody
I've just come through a really awful week almost as hard as when we had to put my dad in a care home last year. Basically as I've mentioned before my mum has dementia too and has been living at home with carer support. Last Tues mum was taken into hospital with heart and kidney failure and overnight we feared that we were going to lose her. We didn't but since then shes been 'critical but stable' in hospital and is now on a dementia ward. We've been told its a balancing game with her organs but as she isn't going to get any better that she may have to go into a nursing home. This is a bit of a shock to us as we always thought that mum and dad would end up together in dad's care home but as mums mobility has been affected due to retaining so much fluid in her legs and her ulcers on both it seems a nursing home it will be. We are taking each day as it comes and I'm driving back and forth for 1.5 hrs every other day. She's very poorly but talking and beginning to be aggressive in the hospital a side of her that has never ever been seen before. Yesterday she sobbed with me and I sobbed back. She wanted dad...I pretended he had a bad stomach and couldn't see her. We haven't told dad and my question is should we? He still recognises her and vice versa but would a hospital visit by him be remembered? Is it worth it? Last time they went out together they kissed and cuddled at home time isn't it best to leave it like that? Also what happens next? Who will tell us when mum needs to leave hospital? Will SS be involved again like dad and as mum has over £23,000 in her own name and will be self funding from the start is there any grace time where we will be exempt from paying? As self funders how will we know what nursing homes offer the care mum needs for heart/kidney failure? This is so different from dad! and finally am I bad for wanting this to be all over and for my lovely mums organs to fail completely? She has no real quality of life now and after 5 years I just want part of the nightmare to be over but it feels like its just got much worse.
I've just come through a really awful week almost as hard as when we had to put my dad in a care home last year. Basically as I've mentioned before my mum has dementia too and has been living at home with carer support. Last Tues mum was taken into hospital with heart and kidney failure and overnight we feared that we were going to lose her. We didn't but since then shes been 'critical but stable' in hospital and is now on a dementia ward. We've been told its a balancing game with her organs but as she isn't going to get any better that she may have to go into a nursing home. This is a bit of a shock to us as we always thought that mum and dad would end up together in dad's care home but as mums mobility has been affected due to retaining so much fluid in her legs and her ulcers on both it seems a nursing home it will be. We are taking each day as it comes and I'm driving back and forth for 1.5 hrs every other day. She's very poorly but talking and beginning to be aggressive in the hospital a side of her that has never ever been seen before. Yesterday she sobbed with me and I sobbed back. She wanted dad...I pretended he had a bad stomach and couldn't see her. We haven't told dad and my question is should we? He still recognises her and vice versa but would a hospital visit by him be remembered? Is it worth it? Last time they went out together they kissed and cuddled at home time isn't it best to leave it like that? Also what happens next? Who will tell us when mum needs to leave hospital? Will SS be involved again like dad and as mum has over £23,000 in her own name and will be self funding from the start is there any grace time where we will be exempt from paying? As self funders how will we know what nursing homes offer the care mum needs for heart/kidney failure? This is so different from dad! and finally am I bad for wanting this to be all over and for my lovely mums organs to fail completely? She has no real quality of life now and after 5 years I just want part of the nightmare to be over but it feels like its just got much worse.