Thank you.
One of the requirements of them letting mum home was that they implemented mum would have someone other than her partner there at all times.
Over the last two months her partner has made it pretty unbearable for people to visit.
I will happily hold my hand up and say, I gave up my job to cate for mum, I get the very insulting 69 carers allowance but its getting harder and harder to spend time in the environment.
My sister in law and I going to hijack her on Sunday, take her for a nice day out which includes visiting my brothers down stairs shower, she is to lathered like it or not.
Regarding my mums partner, if mum doesn't have to sell we are all happy for him to stay, for many many years he has been good for mum, and she has been even better for him. He's been a kinda surrogate grandad to my two growing up , im emotionally tied to also wanting what's best for him, but obviously his needs fail into insignificance especially as these last 12 months or so he has been a bloody nightmare and mum fares better and is happier and healthier in spirit and mind when she is not around him.
At present just knowing I have to go spend my time at my mums with him there ( he never goes out) fills me with dread.
I have autism/adhd and at 53 to my detriment I have learned I have to keep check on my own mental well being.
I'm not looking for sympathy here I'm honestly not, but I had a blur of a few weeks a while back, I was stood in Liverpool cathedral applauding my son as he gained his masters and as the tears rolled down my cheek, my sons girlfriend smiled at what she thought were tears of pride.
That day it took my every bit of strength I had to get there, and the tears were for myself, I at that moment honestly didn't want to participate in life anymore, in any capacity.
Her partner hasn't just worn me down, he's run over me and reversed. People may question my loyalty, I guess its an aspire thing, we do tend to be ridiculously loyal. ?
My intention now is to spend next 48 hrs reading and finding out as much information as possible then ring mums sw who is attached in the rehab unit she was in and speak to her doctor as she is in constant pain. I've just taken her to a/e other night, was crying in pain, she's proper bunged up, once these drinks kick in over next day or so I just know that although she is not incontinent, she simply won't make it, her mobility isn't going to be quick enough. Hence the hijacking Sunday.
Cos so insisted her gas cooker be capped, we intended to get a new little kitchen with new safer electric cooker.
We got an air fryer, slow cooker, steamer, new microwave and toaster. With all these tools anything can be made, but he insists he can take care of mum all by himself, he can't look after himself . So he can't look after mum, for 2 months he's made it unbearable to care for mum, im hanging by a thread some days and there is no other option than put him and his needs aside, get mum the care she needs and deserves.