I had an unexpected free morning so I went to my mum's care home today . She was asleep when I arrived but soon woke up and although she immediately started talking to her "voices" she seemed bright enough.
I'd been there about half an hour when I started to get the feeling she didn't actually know who I was. 😒 She was asking me if I remembered things "they" did at the orphanage she lived in as a child and I said no mum I didn't go to the orphanage so I don't know about that. Oh she said, did you go to the church school in the daytime and just sleep in the same dormitory as me? This is when the penny dropped...
She knew my name when I asked her but she didn't know the relationship between us. When I told her I was her daughter she just looked very confused and said "Really? But I don't have any children!" Eventually after gently asking her questions it turned out she thought I was someone she lived with at the orphanage where she grew up in the 1940s/50s 😳
She was diagnosed in October 2021 after several years of trying to get primary care to take my concerns seriously. I believe she's now in the later stages of the disease as she started having visual and auditory hallucinations 18 months ago. This is when I finally got her into care. I knew the day when she didn't know who I am would eventually arrive and there's probably worse to come 😥 but it's going to take some processing knowing I no longer exist in my mother's world. I took some comfort that she thinks I'm someone she clearly cared about when she was growing up but I still feel very sad. I miss my mum.
I'd been there about half an hour when I started to get the feeling she didn't actually know who I was. 😒 She was asking me if I remembered things "they" did at the orphanage she lived in as a child and I said no mum I didn't go to the orphanage so I don't know about that. Oh she said, did you go to the church school in the daytime and just sleep in the same dormitory as me? This is when the penny dropped...
She knew my name when I asked her but she didn't know the relationship between us. When I told her I was her daughter she just looked very confused and said "Really? But I don't have any children!" Eventually after gently asking her questions it turned out she thought I was someone she lived with at the orphanage where she grew up in the 1940s/50s 😳
She was diagnosed in October 2021 after several years of trying to get primary care to take my concerns seriously. I believe she's now in the later stages of the disease as she started having visual and auditory hallucinations 18 months ago. This is when I finally got her into care. I knew the day when she didn't know who I am would eventually arrive and there's probably worse to come 😥 but it's going to take some processing knowing I no longer exist in my mother's world. I took some comfort that she thinks I'm someone she clearly cared about when she was growing up but I still feel very sad. I miss my mum.
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