I haven't posted in a long time. Mum is settled in a care home and things are ticking along, but yesterday I heard some sad news about a relative and it feels like someone has pulled a rug from under my feet.
A family member called yesterday evening to tell me one of their adult children is seriously ill. My first thought was what will mum say followed swiftly by the thought that she can't know, I'm not sure she would be able to understand and if she did she'd be distressed.
Mum was always in the thick of family stuff and pre dementia we'd have spent yesterday evening talking it through. I had no idea how much I would miss that. I'm not very close to the person who is ill so it's a bit of an overreaction, but it made me think about just how alone I am.
A family member called yesterday evening to tell me one of their adult children is seriously ill. My first thought was what will mum say followed swiftly by the thought that she can't know, I'm not sure she would be able to understand and if she did she'd be distressed.
Mum was always in the thick of family stuff and pre dementia we'd have spent yesterday evening talking it through. I had no idea how much I would miss that. I'm not very close to the person who is ill so it's a bit of an overreaction, but it made me think about just how alone I am.