Hi everyone, I just wanted to share my desperate feeling of hopelessness and despair at this horrible down right unfair disease!! My Dad was taken into a home on Friday as his partner could no longer cope with him at home, we both took him there and my heart sank when we walked into the communal area and it was full of old people sat around in arm chairs, some sleeping with their mouths open and some just staring into space. I'm not sure what I expected but it was so heart breaking to take my wonderful Daddy into this situation and have to leave him there. We managed to fool him into getting out of the car and once inside he immediately protested about not wanting to be there. with that we were advised to leave him and not to visit for a few days? I've cried every night since and my mind is a mess and I just don't know how I will cope without him at Christmas. I'm also very scared about going to visit him as I'm sure he will want me to take him home, I'm not very strong in emotional situations and I will probably cry which wont help anyone. I'm struggling with everything and I want to be able to picture the months ahead and think happy thoughts of me taking him out for days and doing fun things with him but for now I just can't. I miss my Daddy and I want him back but I know that I'll never get him back!