Dear Linda,
My heart goes out to you for how the programme must have affected you personally. You have my utmost respect.
Watching the 49 year lady come to terms with her illness and how her beautiful daughter was preparing for changes touched me deeply. It made me question how that would make me feel if it were me...so I can only imagine what you must have felt.
As I said in my first post, I was left with feelings of admiration and awe at the families and sufferers courage.
I can only touch the edge of what fears must go through your head but you face it with such determination and dignity that your children will have these characteristics passed onto them. You will have taught them so much to prepare them for life, no matter how sad the reason.
My youngest child is also three, so I can feel your pain when I walk in your shoes, just for a minute. My two older children tell me stories of events when they were 3, and sometimes younger. I gasp and say I can't believe they remember them!! Usually simple things, they have happy memories, and it warms me to think that though my youngest hasn't told me yet, she will be building and storing memories right now. Your little one will be doing the same. They take things as they come, and they know no different. Happy memories will erase any sad ones, and although I may be an adult, I'm beginning to see that for myself. I treasure the good times, and thank my mum for providing them in the lifetime she was given.
I always say that when my time comes, my children will remember me for being the best mum they could ever have had; that they will laugh when they remember the silly things we did together; that they pass on the love and respect we have for each other to their own children; that they learn to care and be kind. Whatever time I have with them on this earth, I will strive to plant these seeds. I may not have a time-line, as such, but losing my parents has changed my outlook. Life is short. I will spend it making memories for my children.
I imagine you are driven this way too, xxxxx