I have just read tender face's post - the last, first.
Lillian May is my Mum and Tuesday September 22nd will be the first anniversary of her passing. I am finding that my torment is 'this time last year' syndrome and I seem to be reliving her last days like it was yesterday not only in my waking moments but also when I am asleep, when I actually manage to sleep that is.
It's not the day that troubles me it is the lead up to it. It might be because she passed away so early on that day but the three days before when I knew she was going is what I am reliving desperately wanting to be able to hang on to her.
My logical mind has long since deserted me and the only way I can get through the long days and even longer nights is by not believing that I will never see or touch her again. She's coming home and then everything will be back to normal......
So I am waiting...................
Lillian May is my Mum and Tuesday September 22nd will be the first anniversary of her passing. I am finding that my torment is 'this time last year' syndrome and I seem to be reliving her last days like it was yesterday not only in my waking moments but also when I am asleep, when I actually manage to sleep that is.
It's not the day that troubles me it is the lead up to it. It might be because she passed away so early on that day but the three days before when I knew she was going is what I am reliving desperately wanting to be able to hang on to her.
My logical mind has long since deserted me and the only way I can get through the long days and even longer nights is by not believing that I will never see or touch her again. She's coming home and then everything will be back to normal......
So I am waiting...................