hi everyone
i haven't posted much (think i have only done four posts) dad is now in the final stages cant walk, talk eat much he spends most of his time in bed. he is slowly detaching from us he wont even look at me now, he is half his body weight and has had 6 chest infections in the last 7 months plus some minor strokes but we still managed to celebrate his 80th birthday last june
if anyone remembers my posts we cared for dad for 8 years as a family and had to admit defeat and place him in a home (which is fantastic) we fought for continuing care and won ( i am stubborn and refused to give up , think they gave us it to shut me up)
i fought for my dad and now i feel helpless i cant do anything for him . i know this is how the illness goes (he had four siblings with Alzheimer) but my dad is dying slowly in front of me its staring me in the face and i don't think i am coping very well.
i know how i am feeling is normal in the normal sense i am grieving but i feel like my bladder is in the back of my neck i cry at anything , i feel anxious most of the time dreading the next chest infection , the dreaded phone call etc i am a trained counselor / CBT therapist and i cant help myself i don't know how to ( my dad has no idea what i have achieved ) i cant share that with him.
has anyone felt like this ? i feel on edge all the time
i am sorry this is such a negative post but i know those who have gone through similar will understand
thank you for reading
i haven't posted much (think i have only done four posts) dad is now in the final stages cant walk, talk eat much he spends most of his time in bed. he is slowly detaching from us he wont even look at me now, he is half his body weight and has had 6 chest infections in the last 7 months plus some minor strokes but we still managed to celebrate his 80th birthday last june
if anyone remembers my posts we cared for dad for 8 years as a family and had to admit defeat and place him in a home (which is fantastic) we fought for continuing care and won ( i am stubborn and refused to give up , think they gave us it to shut me up)
i fought for my dad and now i feel helpless i cant do anything for him . i know this is how the illness goes (he had four siblings with Alzheimer) but my dad is dying slowly in front of me its staring me in the face and i don't think i am coping very well.
i know how i am feeling is normal in the normal sense i am grieving but i feel like my bladder is in the back of my neck i cry at anything , i feel anxious most of the time dreading the next chest infection , the dreaded phone call etc i am a trained counselor / CBT therapist and i cant help myself i don't know how to ( my dad has no idea what i have achieved ) i cant share that with him.
has anyone felt like this ? i feel on edge all the time
i am sorry this is such a negative post but i know those who have gone through similar will understand
thank you for reading