Thanks Sue. Consoling.
It's getting clear to me (belatedly) that the Alzheimers is getting ahead of me, and my "natural intelligence" isn't going to be enough to keep me coping.
Do I need a carer? or are good friends and relations enough to keep me going?
As I've said before, I'm so darned independent that I don't take kindly to the idea of needing 'care'. And I'm too mean to want to pay someone to do it either, when I wanted what money I have to go to the kids.
I've got to the stage of completely forgetting my passwords etc, and can't even remember where I've written them down. I clearly need to talk to one of the dementia advisers and to make a sensible plan, as I may have already said (Taken recently to repeating myself, with what seem to me like really new and exciting ideas!)
Luckily my two grown kids are around a lot - I could get them to have a meeting with me, maybe with a very effective friend who's helped me with some of this.
I have to be resolute about counting my blessings, not sinking into a "Poor me" situation. So... Great kids and grandkids, enough money, nice little home, amazing friends, living in a good village, and even have a lovely little garden (which right now needs watering!)
"Pull yourself together, Jo! You've lived to 80 so count those blessings again!!"