Hi everyone,
Help please, I have really messed up!
Mum has at last begun to settle in her CH after about 3 months. She has seemed so much better recently, but today I let my guard down. Every day she asks me where my dad is. Why hasn't he come to see her? Why would he stay away? Why hasn't he phoned? You all know how it goes.
Today I told her he died a long time ago. She was beside herself, crying, blaming me for treating her as if she were stupid by not telling her before. I am so upset with myself. I tried to change the subject, but she couldn't be distracted or consoled. For so long I have kept up the lies, but she kept saying don't lie to me. tell me the truth. So I did. Stupid, stupid me.
The carers tell me she will forget what I said, but I am not so sure. I think when she sees me again, it will bring back the feelings of grief, even if she doesn't know why. I am wondering what I can do. Should I stay away for a couple of days to give her a better chance of forgetting?
I am really worried tonight and hoping someone here can advise me on how best to retrieve the situation...if it is possible...and she was so happy when I first went in...eating her jelly and icecream!! grrrr!
Angela
Help please, I have really messed up!
Mum has at last begun to settle in her CH after about 3 months. She has seemed so much better recently, but today I let my guard down. Every day she asks me where my dad is. Why hasn't he come to see her? Why would he stay away? Why hasn't he phoned? You all know how it goes.
Today I told her he died a long time ago. She was beside herself, crying, blaming me for treating her as if she were stupid by not telling her before. I am so upset with myself. I tried to change the subject, but she couldn't be distracted or consoled. For so long I have kept up the lies, but she kept saying don't lie to me. tell me the truth. So I did. Stupid, stupid me.
The carers tell me she will forget what I said, but I am not so sure. I think when she sees me again, it will bring back the feelings of grief, even if she doesn't know why. I am wondering what I can do. Should I stay away for a couple of days to give her a better chance of forgetting?
I am really worried tonight and hoping someone here can advise me on how best to retrieve the situation...if it is possible...and she was so happy when I first went in...eating her jelly and icecream!! grrrr!
Angela