Hello to you all, I am finding this post difficult to write but I need to know if anyone feels the same or if I am just abnormal. My husband has mixed dementia and it started to be very noticeable seven years ago, getting worse in 2015 when he was sectioned. Since then he has been in care in a very nice home and is calm and settled. We have been together for nearly 40 years and married for 35 but I I have problem in that I don't seem to be able to recall much of our life together before the dementia years. I find it very distressing that I can only see in my minds eye the man in front of me now and it is a struggle to think of the person that used to be there and the life we had. Is this normal? Does dementia seep into every part of us so that it overrides the life we had before or is it a coping mechanism that allows us to carry on? I really don't know. All I know is that when it is over I want to be able to think of him as he was and not the person I see every day now. Does anyone else feel like this?