Thanks in advance for reading. Married 22 years. My husband aged 53 changed while working overseas for a year in a very remote location. No flights in and out. He suddenly got agitated and aggravated. Then he asked for a divorce. I spent the last 4 months of it in shock with him being so mean to me over the phone while waiting for him to return home. He had been the most placid caring husband ever so I'm still in shock. He has been back for 4 months and still wants to leave me, but hasn't.
He has barricaded himself in the bedroom and I am on the floor in the living room. He won't let me near him, says he does not love me and has such an empty look on his face all day long.
I have been trying to piece this all together. Most wives would have packed his bag for him long ago in how abusive and unempathetic he is being but I just feel something is not right. I have spoken to someone specialised in dementia seeing as this runs in his family and with all the symptoms I have explained they said they believe it is early onset and I have to get a diagnosis as fast as possible to begin medication. The list of unusual things he is doing and decline in functions is fast growing to match his new personality.
But I just have not read anywhere that a patient wants to leave their spouse in the beginning stages. I can see he doesn't want to be touched or crowded and he is very convincing that he no longer loves me. He bashed his head on a concrete wall when I went near him 2 weeks ago. He has never done anything like that.
I'm not sure if the being away for a year as this escalated may have had this effect. It is breaking my heart. I have ended up in hospital myself from the stress as I love him so much. No empathy from him despite always being so caring for me. I want to be there to help him but he seems so unhappy around me. He can be happy around others for short times when we are both out.
From the outside this would appear he just does not want to be with me. But It Is all the other symptoms that make me not want to give up. He is free to go and choosing not to. He doesn't seem to know why himself. He doesn't have answers for anything. He says he feels lost and there is something inside of him he can not explain.
We had such a close relationship and I know even if he had to do something difficult he would have done it in the kindest way. He has handled this the complete opposite. I'm in for a bit of a wait on the diagnosis but just wondering if pushing away a spouse at the beginning is being experienced by others.
It is so hard to not take this personal. He will approach me to yell in my face he does not want to be my husband. Other times he is calm and settled in. Really grieving so much with this beautiful husband in front of me I am only allowed to love from accross the room
He has barricaded himself in the bedroom and I am on the floor in the living room. He won't let me near him, says he does not love me and has such an empty look on his face all day long.
I have been trying to piece this all together. Most wives would have packed his bag for him long ago in how abusive and unempathetic he is being but I just feel something is not right. I have spoken to someone specialised in dementia seeing as this runs in his family and with all the symptoms I have explained they said they believe it is early onset and I have to get a diagnosis as fast as possible to begin medication. The list of unusual things he is doing and decline in functions is fast growing to match his new personality.
But I just have not read anywhere that a patient wants to leave their spouse in the beginning stages. I can see he doesn't want to be touched or crowded and he is very convincing that he no longer loves me. He bashed his head on a concrete wall when I went near him 2 weeks ago. He has never done anything like that.
I'm not sure if the being away for a year as this escalated may have had this effect. It is breaking my heart. I have ended up in hospital myself from the stress as I love him so much. No empathy from him despite always being so caring for me. I want to be there to help him but he seems so unhappy around me. He can be happy around others for short times when we are both out.
From the outside this would appear he just does not want to be with me. But It Is all the other symptoms that make me not want to give up. He is free to go and choosing not to. He doesn't seem to know why himself. He doesn't have answers for anything. He says he feels lost and there is something inside of him he can not explain.
We had such a close relationship and I know even if he had to do something difficult he would have done it in the kindest way. He has handled this the complete opposite. I'm in for a bit of a wait on the diagnosis but just wondering if pushing away a spouse at the beginning is being experienced by others.
It is so hard to not take this personal. He will approach me to yell in my face he does not want to be my husband. Other times he is calm and settled in. Really grieving so much with this beautiful husband in front of me I am only allowed to love from accross the room