I am back. The notes in the care plan read like a disaster
Alan is worse than ever (or is it because I am seeing him from fresh eyes?) - I don't think so. I have an email from the lady from the AZ Soc and another from the Social Worker and it seems there is much talking to do and much work to do and I really feel I cannot cope.
Now I've had a break I realise that out of this situation I am 'just me' and am not at all depressed. In this situation, I feel I am on the verge of a breakdown and tears are always just under the surface.
I don't know what the answer is and I know that nobody else will know either. I suppose I will need to set up a meeting. I really need support because the base reality is that I cannot continue alone. I need actual support and not more stress that can generate from trying to get support and I really am not able to see what is realistically possible.
I think I will try to cope with today and spend the time trying to get Alan back on an even keel and just gently getting the house back in order from having so many sitters and a husband who looked so unkempt and uncared for by the time I got home. Apparently, the night sitter had to call the Manager out to him and it seems that no one really understood his needs
I'm not sure about this latter bit because I haven't actually spoken to anyone but from reading the care plan notes, this is the impression that I have.
Love
Now I've had a break I realise that out of this situation I am 'just me' and am not at all depressed. In this situation, I feel I am on the verge of a breakdown and tears are always just under the surface.
I don't know what the answer is and I know that nobody else will know either. I suppose I will need to set up a meeting. I really need support because the base reality is that I cannot continue alone. I need actual support and not more stress that can generate from trying to get support and I really am not able to see what is realistically possible.
I think I will try to cope with today and spend the time trying to get Alan back on an even keel and just gently getting the house back in order from having so many sitters and a husband who looked so unkempt and uncared for by the time I got home. Apparently, the night sitter had to call the Manager out to him and it seems that no one really understood his needs
Love