I seem to have very little patience this week. Alan is definitely picking up on the vibes. I just seem to need to switch off whenever I can. Usually I can cope with the constant demands (I don't mean the demands that dementia bring), I mean demands generally. I have a sister with Downs Syndrome and I am responsible for making sure that her life is o.k. It has been far from ok with changes in the system of her care and I have been having to sort out loads of things with regard to that. It has meant challenging systems and people and trying my utmost to bring about positive change. My sister was suffering and rather than them trying to understand that she was suffering because of their lack of care and understanding, they were wanting to drug her on anti-psychotic medication (and succeeded until I found out). I have just about managed to change things round and my sister is now happy and cared for properly again but there are still a few miles to travel in order for me to let go. One of the good things that has come out of it is that the staff have had to undergo specific training in understanding someone who cannot express their needs clearly by language.
This is only one of the extra things - and all the time I am having to provide excellent care for my husband. It is only when I feel like I do this week that I realise just how amazing it is that Alan gets as good as he does from me. This week his care from me has been rather poor. I have not been able to give him anywhere near the attention that I usually give and my face has shown anguish, stress and annoyance at any little extra thing that needs sorting. Today he went out with the sitter and he took his key off his key chain
I have no idea why he did that (I don't suppose he has any idea why either) but it meant that when they came back they couldn't get in because I was out shopping
They were wet through because they'd been fishing with nets and jam jars (I will post pictures on Sticky Pics later when the sitter sends me the photos).
I truly apologise for such a long post but it has helped to just pour it all out. I have been holding it all in all week.
Love
This is only one of the extra things - and all the time I am having to provide excellent care for my husband. It is only when I feel like I do this week that I realise just how amazing it is that Alan gets as good as he does from me. This week his care from me has been rather poor. I have not been able to give him anywhere near the attention that I usually give and my face has shown anguish, stress and annoyance at any little extra thing that needs sorting. Today he went out with the sitter and he took his key off his key chain
I truly apologise for such a long post but it has helped to just pour it all out. I have been holding it all in all week.
Love