Crossroads rang to say that they have someone for Monday mornings and Thursday afternoons and that they will gradually increase this over the month to our full allowance.
It is only now that I am appreciating how difficult this process is. I am battling with it in my head because I can't tell whether it will be a help or a hindrance. It is such a big change having someone else to consider. I don't want anyone to misunderstand and think I won't accept what's being offered, I just want to speak out how I am really finding the process. I expected to feel relieved and full of joy but it's not the case. I suppose I will have to actually have the 'experience' before I know the effects - good or ill. I hope I haven't acted too hastily! I think it's because when we had that virus things were dire and bleak but now things have gone back to 'our normal'. We both like 'our normal' and now it is going to be disrupted to introduce another normal!
Love
It is only now that I am appreciating how difficult this process is. I am battling with it in my head because I can't tell whether it will be a help or a hindrance. It is such a big change having someone else to consider. I don't want anyone to misunderstand and think I won't accept what's being offered, I just want to speak out how I am really finding the process. I expected to feel relieved and full of joy but it's not the case. I suppose I will have to actually have the 'experience' before I know the effects - good or ill. I hope I haven't acted too hastily! I think it's because when we had that virus things were dire and bleak but now things have gone back to 'our normal'. We both like 'our normal' and now it is going to be disrupted to introduce another normal!
Love