My father told his carer this evening that he doesn't want to be here any more. I asked her as to whether he meant here as in this house, or as in this planet. She said it was the latter.
He's fed up with his condition (more mobility than mental - he has Parkinsons Plus), I'm fed up with the constant battling and having to get up several times in the night to get him back into bed but it's the first time I think I've heard him admit that he doesn't think he's going to recover. He's still taking his pills and eating well and I know depression is common amongst dementia sufferers but it's a horrible thing to hear, even second hand. I don't want him to live in misery but hearing that has brought it to the fore that I don't want him to die either.
Aside from putting up more rails and trying to get his purpose built annexe finished, there is so little anyone can do - his condition is not treatable. The carers do a tremendous job but it's getting to a point where they won't be able to cope with him.
He's fed up with his condition (more mobility than mental - he has Parkinsons Plus), I'm fed up with the constant battling and having to get up several times in the night to get him back into bed but it's the first time I think I've heard him admit that he doesn't think he's going to recover. He's still taking his pills and eating well and I know depression is common amongst dementia sufferers but it's a horrible thing to hear, even second hand. I don't want him to live in misery but hearing that has brought it to the fore that I don't want him to die either.
Aside from putting up more rails and trying to get his purpose built annexe finished, there is so little anyone can do - his condition is not treatable. The carers do a tremendous job but it's getting to a point where they won't be able to cope with him.