Last Friday I got a call to say my mum who is in a nursing home had stopped taking fluids and was v poorly. We agreed to keep her there and not take her into hospital. She has vascular dementia and breast cancer. GP wrote her up for morphine. I drove the 5 1/2 hour journey to get here. I've been with her whilst she has just shrunk into nothing for the last 6 days. She has a morphine infusion. No one here can believe she is still going. Her breathing is awful. It is slow but really loud and blowing. She has periods where she stops breathing for 15 seconds then I think that is the end and she starts again. I'm staying overnight as I want to be with her. I can't bear it any longer. I just want it to end and her breathing is like a monster in the room tormenting me. I want her to be at peace. She doesn't look like my mum any more. I'm so tired. Thanks for having somewhere for me to say this.