I’m the same! I’ve read the books that say you should just deal with whatever comes your way and be positive, which I can do on a good day, but on the others… Hmm! Always makes me feel bad afterwards, if I’ve shown my irritation, but I have never claimed to be a saint… Just a normal human being who cannot go around being Sally Sunshine everyday.I empathise! I worry all the time that Im harsh or impatient and I feel like crying but the tears wont come. Today was awful-the loo was blocked and before I could sort he hoiked it all out and placed it on the seat and sink. I admit I shouted! He hung about looking worried and I sent him away while I cleaned up. I was emotionally drained and fell asleep on the sofa afterwards. When I woke he said “I love you you know”. I feel a complete witch and so sad. I cant stop responding emotionally somehow
However, I have learned from experience that disposable gloves are the way to go, and I have done things I could never have imagined I would be capable of doing! Water based baby wipes are also very useful, but you probably know that. One positive is that I no longer bite my nails - my ex nurse sister in law told me it stopped her too - so it’s an ill wind and you have to take the positives where you find them! 😂