Its my birthday the first one since hubby died,so instead of thinking off not having him here, I celebrated my birthday with a cup of coffee and a cream cake that I shared with the dog.Yes I wish he was here,but to know he,s free from the pain of a fractured hip ,chest infection and of course the dementia,I couldnt wish him back,he,s still here with me I have photos of him in every room,its gives me the comfort to have him around even in a photo,