Today I visited my Mum in the care home where she now lives. When I got there at 2.30, she was in her room & in the process of trying to put her nightie on. Being confused about the time of day is a common occurrence with her, but not usually to the extent that she gets ready for bed when it’s still daylight. When I said it was too early for bed, she said “But I’ve been out all day”. I said I didn’t think she had, though she did go out on Thursday, when we went on the home’s Christmas outing. She still insisted she had been out, & had only just got in, which was why she was tired!
I said she couldn’t have been out unless someone took her, & asked who had taken her. She couldn’t tell me, except that it was “two girls”, & couldn’t remember where she had been, & said I’d have to ask the girls.
I didn’t handle all this very well – I’m used to her being confused to some degree, but this seemed worse than usual, & she wasn’t happy with me telling her she was wrong & hadn’t been out. Part of me knew it might be best to just “play along”, say I hope she had a nice time etc, but I just couldn’t. Eventually I let it drop as she was getting upset, & managed to change the subject. I had some Xmas cards for her to open, so suggested we did that. She then produced a small pile of unopened cards from her bag. These all had her name on them but no address or stamp. As we opened them (she struggles with envelopes, so I got them out & passed each card to her to open & read) I realised they were all from friends who belong to a club that her & my late Dad were members of for many years.
I was wondering how these cards had got to her, when she suddenly said that was where she had been….to the club. And I realised she was right - though admittedly it wasn’t today, it was last night, when they had their Xmas party. And she probably was still tired, as it would have meant she was out way past her normal 9pm bedtime. The two “girls” , I eventually established, were two ladies who belong to the club who are both older than Mum! She couldn’t think of their names, but could remember where they lived, & that they are “very jolly”, & when prompted by me, one of their names did come back to her. They had collected her by car (they are fortunate enough to still be very healthy & independent) & taken her back afterwards.
I felt so awful then….yes, she was confused to some degree, but I’d made things worse by jumping in & just assuming she couldn’t possibly have been out. I said “so you did go out then”, & gave her a kiss to say sorry. She said “I forgive you, I know it’s only because you care about me”….and I suppose that’s true, I do only worry about her being confused because she’s my mother & I care. I’m actually very grateful to these friends for taking her out too, as she doesn’t get out of the home much, & she was able to recall quite a bit about the evening as we chatted about it, & had obviously enjoyed it. I had thought I was getting better at “disentangling” what Mum says, & working out what she’s actually trying to tell me without getting wound up, but today I failed miserably . I should at least have remembered that a “girl” can mean anyone female aged from around 10 to 100 in Mum’s world!
But I guess she will probably have forgotten all about it by tomorrow….
I said she couldn’t have been out unless someone took her, & asked who had taken her. She couldn’t tell me, except that it was “two girls”, & couldn’t remember where she had been, & said I’d have to ask the girls.
I didn’t handle all this very well – I’m used to her being confused to some degree, but this seemed worse than usual, & she wasn’t happy with me telling her she was wrong & hadn’t been out. Part of me knew it might be best to just “play along”, say I hope she had a nice time etc, but I just couldn’t. Eventually I let it drop as she was getting upset, & managed to change the subject. I had some Xmas cards for her to open, so suggested we did that. She then produced a small pile of unopened cards from her bag. These all had her name on them but no address or stamp. As we opened them (she struggles with envelopes, so I got them out & passed each card to her to open & read) I realised they were all from friends who belong to a club that her & my late Dad were members of for many years.
I was wondering how these cards had got to her, when she suddenly said that was where she had been….to the club. And I realised she was right - though admittedly it wasn’t today, it was last night, when they had their Xmas party. And she probably was still tired, as it would have meant she was out way past her normal 9pm bedtime. The two “girls” , I eventually established, were two ladies who belong to the club who are both older than Mum! She couldn’t think of their names, but could remember where they lived, & that they are “very jolly”, & when prompted by me, one of their names did come back to her. They had collected her by car (they are fortunate enough to still be very healthy & independent) & taken her back afterwards.
I felt so awful then….yes, she was confused to some degree, but I’d made things worse by jumping in & just assuming she couldn’t possibly have been out. I said “so you did go out then”, & gave her a kiss to say sorry. She said “I forgive you, I know it’s only because you care about me”….and I suppose that’s true, I do only worry about her being confused because she’s my mother & I care. I’m actually very grateful to these friends for taking her out too, as she doesn’t get out of the home much, & she was able to recall quite a bit about the evening as we chatted about it, & had obviously enjoyed it. I had thought I was getting better at “disentangling” what Mum says, & working out what she’s actually trying to tell me without getting wound up, but today I failed miserably . I should at least have remembered that a “girl” can mean anyone female aged from around 10 to 100 in Mum’s world!
But I guess she will probably have forgotten all about it by tomorrow….