I dont know where to start or if this right. I am 58 work full time from home in a very senior job and care for my 89 year old mom who is blind and has some other health issues. She has always been difficult but can be lovely too. I dont know if she has early dementia but she hides thimgs them says I have tsken them, I am taking over her house, lying to her, do not tell her things. None of this true and sadly I do get angry in response to these allegations, this ends up with her not talking to me and I cannot get past it. I wish I were dead. I dont know if it is me, maybe I am a horrible person. She has not been diagnosed, no chance of this as if I even suggested getting help it would just be my fault and there is no way she will see anyone. I just cannot cope anymore, the guilt is to much that I feel like this. Does anyone else? I am with her 24/7 and if cannot get any time alone as I must be 'up to something'.