I have just returned from a 2 week holiday abroad while OH was in a lovely care home for 3 weeks. From the outset it had been agreed that the care home and social services would only contact me in a dire emergency, but because well meaning folk/ friends where I was staying kept asking after OH and how he was settling I emailed the care home a few times. Each time I was told that OH was settling fairly well, although he refused to join in with any activities. So, being able to have a much needed break from my caring role one would naturally have expected that I would relax and enjoy my freedom, but I couldn`t and didn`t. I felt so guilty for going away even though I knew, only too well, how much my health was suffering. In fact whilst I was away I had a very unpleasant bout of sinusitis which I was told was caused by the, very much necessary, air conditioning, and is still affecting me.
Now, both OH and I are home again and I am full of guilt and disappointment. I can not shake the feeling of wanting to blame OH for me not having the relaxing time I`d hoped for, and for having to pick up the sole caring baton again.
Now, both OH and I are home again and I am full of guilt and disappointment. I can not shake the feeling of wanting to blame OH for me not having the relaxing time I`d hoped for, and for having to pick up the sole caring baton again.