I can't believe it got a phone call tonight from a friend of my husbands asking if i would sit with his mother tomorrow. he gave a full shift of hours but as it's my first time since caring for my mum i got him down to four to see how it goes the bonus is i can take my daughter. it's a bit scary and so exciting to, it's my sons friends gran and he says she's worse than gran who blinking cares i think i have been having withdrawal symptoms since mums passing and i'm hoping that if i get over this hurdle i can officially get back on the band wagon and make a minute difference to somebody. the funny thing is i was going to do the guys brothers garden tomorrow so bye bye weeds for the day. please pray i can manage this and hope it doesn't put me back to square one. i'm thinking yes this is the next step i went to the job centre a fortnight ago and told them i primarily would like to be a carer for sufferers of alzheimers/dementia and she looked at me with such horror i was aghast she then typed in library assistant which left me aghast i've been there and done that to the point my old library boss laughed as he knows my path is not there. in my tiny gardening business i have clients who say don't go back but there is a pull in me and i don't think i want to see anything else. maybe this is fate maybe not but hopefully it will work. please pray it will.