So now that dad has gone, I am coming to grips with all the 'first' things without him.
I had my first birthday without him, in November - and now my first Christmas without my dad. I cant remember much about recent Christmasses but I do remember my childhood ones well. I remember finding a bike in my bedroom and having NO idea how Santa had got that in there - and traditional Christmas dinners, all pulling crackers and telling the stupid jokes. I remember that I couldn't figure out why my brother (6 years older) didn't want to get up at the crack of dawn like I did!
We had our dinner wearing our silly flimsy paper hats and dad always washed the dishes afterwards, still wearing his, then fell asleep in the afternoon with his hat slipping over his eyes. Happy, happy times. I'm so lucky to have had them!
When I feel a bit stronger I will watch the DVD we have which was made of our old family cine films - and I know there is a Christmas in there somewhere. I can't watch it just yet but the time will come when I can sit and smile
I had my first birthday without him, in November - and now my first Christmas without my dad. I cant remember much about recent Christmasses but I do remember my childhood ones well. I remember finding a bike in my bedroom and having NO idea how Santa had got that in there - and traditional Christmas dinners, all pulling crackers and telling the stupid jokes. I remember that I couldn't figure out why my brother (6 years older) didn't want to get up at the crack of dawn like I did!
We had our dinner wearing our silly flimsy paper hats and dad always washed the dishes afterwards, still wearing his, then fell asleep in the afternoon with his hat slipping over his eyes. Happy, happy times. I'm so lucky to have had them!
When I feel a bit stronger I will watch the DVD we have which was made of our old family cine films - and I know there is a Christmas in there somewhere. I can't watch it just yet but the time will come when I can sit and smile