This is probably going to sound stupid but i suppose im wondering if anyone else feels the same as me. The funeral was just yesterday and ive just listened to the songs i chose for my mam and they have not upset me at all, really they are having a different effect on me. When my dad died i couldnt bare to listen to any song that reminded me of death of really emotional, never mind the song they played at his funeral. I all most feel that its wrong that i dont feel as bad as i did with him. The only thing i can put this down too is that over these last few years i have felt a lose each time she has been moved and saw the change. Weeks ago when i was told to make the end of life plan i cried at the thought of choosing her songs and now , well i dont know! is this even normal, am i normal. Shouldnt i be crying all day long! I dont want to be of course but i feel that this is odd. Maybe its the fact that i have had to deal with this all on my own, my own family at home have still been here of course but as for sorting things out, no one could do much really and i have had to tale charge of it all.