Needing someone to grab me by the shoulders and give me a good shake and to tell me to pull myself together. I`ve tried telling myself that at the moment I am fortunate compared to so many carers who post on here, and to buck my ideas up. But it is not working! OH and I have been "celebrating" the festive season on our own, except for a token gesture visit of a couple of hours by 2 of OH`s daughters during the week. I just feel so alone. OH and I never have a proper conversation these days. Even when we go shopping, for a walk or watch television, they are all done in virtual silence. I can understand OH`s reluctance to talk as he often struggles to find the right words so hesitates to say anything. Watching television is a nightmare, old re-runs and far too many "dash cam" and "Australian Border Force" , 90% which have been on time and time again. I seem to have no thoughts other than things will get worse, but instead of being grateful for how things are I just slump into this selfish feeling of loneliness, doom and gloom. So, will appreciate it if someone can give me a verbal kick in the proverbial.