Before my husband went into a care home four months ago, after six months in hospitals.
The following conversation a calm one, being some considerable time after the initial agitation caused by this happening.
Husband takes wallet out of pocket. Slowly looks in each compartment.
"Where is my driving licence?"
Me: "It was returned to the DVLA when you had to stop driving"
(eventually shortened to "The DVLA have it")
"Oh, I wondered where it was"
Pause...
"Why was it returned to the DVLA?"
Me: "When you stop driving you have to return it to the DVLA"
(eventually shortened to "You stopped driving")
"Oh. I didn't know that"
Pause
Why did I (have to) stop driving?"
Me: "It's coffee time. I'll go and make it now"
I am in kitchen making coffee
"Isn't it time for coffee?"
Me: " Yes, I'm making it, wont be long"
Return with coffee. Husband is looking through his wallet. Looks up, smiles
"Ah! Good" I thought it was about coffee time!
"
"Where is my driving licence?"
Me "Why don't you put your wallet away while we enjoy our coffee?"
Husband returns wallet to pocket
Half an hour later - repeat above, multiply daily by ?, subtract coffee making and drinking, add other possible distractions
Much later, husband goes upstairs to bed
I wait, in anticipation...
15 minutes later husband comes downstairs
"Where is my driving licence? It isn't in my wallet"
Think of something - anything....
"Yes, I'm going back to bed, but where is my driviing licence? It isn't in my wallet"
etc., etc., etc., etc....
Multiply by 2 per every other night or so
Then multipy by ? over approximately two years... when all is subtracted to 0 as memory loss closes in
And then...
About 9pm most nights, husband looking in each kitchen cupboard
"I can't find it"
Me: What can't you find?"
"I don't know, but it isn't there"
Me:"Perhaps you left it upstairs?"
No. I can't find it"
Me:"What are you looking for?"
"I don't know but the b****y* thing isn't there"
Me : silence
Silence from the kitchen apart from cupboard doors being opened and closed
Suddenly laughter from kitchen
"I can't find it because I don't know what I'm looking for!"
Pause. More laughter
"I think I'm losing it! Ha! Ha! Ha!"
Husband emerges from kitchen with big grin on his face
Asks "Do you get the joke?! I cant '
find' it because I'm '
losing' it!!
Me: "
Yes, dear, I get the joke!
"
Sad, heartbreaking, not always easy to laugh at the time. But yes, you do have to laugh, it can help, and I've had a chuckle reading this thread.
But now.... bitter sweet memories. Saffie, I know what you mean when you say
Your posts did make me smile. But also to think - if only...X
Loo x