Hello to anyone reading. I’m in the process of coming to terms with the reality that my husband has some serious memory loss. EH has Lyme Disease but his connection with this illness as the reason behind his memory loss ignores the fact that his younger (73 yrs) brother is diagnosed with AD and now living in a group home after living with us for nearly two years. EH is 79. I’m 65. I’m so scared and agitated and I can’t talk with him about it without a fight or his serious decline into some juvenile state. Honestly, I feel like I’ll burst at the emotional seems of my being. I’ve read that the important stage for me is to work on accepting the reality of this progressive disease FIRST by getting a handle on my mood, my emotions, especially because my feeling are so ambivalent. I’m scared but I’m angry. I’m repulsed but I’m desperately clinging. I want to run away but I won’t. My sister in law did. Now I’m caring for my brother in law while grieving the handwriting on the wall about my own EH. God help me.