Bridget will always be with you. I think, I hope, that eventually happy memories override the sad ones, the bad dementia ones. Remember though that some dementia days were fun and all were filled with love. Sadly grief is always present and it’s how we learn to manage it and live with it that will help us to find hope a, sense of purpose and, dare I say it, some happiness.
It is 16 months since James died and the pain I feel is not as raw and visceral as in the earlier months. I do still have what ifs and guilt (I think at one point I had
@canary ’s stick for whacking the guilt monster on permanent loan). However in better days I know I did all I could for James As you did for Bridget.
Be kind to yourself, look after your health and try to be with friends and family doing things that make you smile. Your heart may not be in tune yet but when you’re ready let it sing.
You are a good man, that shines through your posts. You deserve a good life.