Hi @blackmortimer and @jennifer1967 and others. Firstly, I’ve just come away from the home for a quick visit ( can’t visit tomorrow) with some flowers and she was brought to the door and said “wet”, it’s pouring down here.
As I also saw her yesterday, the one day after another almost gave a normality of seeing her as my wife of day to day living. When’s there’s a gap it separates and distances you from that person. Do you understand? Anyway, it’s hit me hard again and I’m in tears in a local pub car park.
I can imagine seeing her everyday and strengthening that bond but, I know, it’s physically and mentally impossible to achieve. So the impossible dilemma is that I want to continue a relationship as man and wife because I miss her but can’t have that dream because she’s gone into another world.
I’ve booked another inside visit for Friday morning.
These posts are my way of journaling my feelings for benefit later on. Thanks for listening.
peter
As I also saw her yesterday, the one day after another almost gave a normality of seeing her as my wife of day to day living. When’s there’s a gap it separates and distances you from that person. Do you understand? Anyway, it’s hit me hard again and I’m in tears in a local pub car park.
I can imagine seeing her everyday and strengthening that bond but, I know, it’s physically and mentally impossible to achieve. So the impossible dilemma is that I want to continue a relationship as man and wife because I miss her but can’t have that dream because she’s gone into another world.
I’ve booked another inside visit for Friday morning.
These posts are my way of journaling my feelings for benefit later on. Thanks for listening.
peter