Hello all,
My grandmother is 90 and has been in decline over the last 2 years or so, but has really gotten bad in the last year. She was living alone and was diagnosed with dementia. About 6 months later, she broke both hips and recovered in a memory care assisted living facility. This week my dad said she started having seizures while having lunch and is no longer able to feed herself cause her hands don't function anymore. He said they've put her on morphine for any pain she may be in, and they don't expect her to last long from this point. I have so much guilt because I haven't gotten the courage to visit her since she was admitted to the assisted living facility last year, and I'm so afraid to see how she's deteriorated since the last time I saw her. I feel so terrible. My parents have been visiting her and they said the care team love her so much, and will be there when she passes. I am afraid that if I don't go see her now I'll regret it, but then I'm afraid of the trauma associated with seeing her like this. I am so torn and sad and feel like a bad grandchild.
My grandmother is 90 and has been in decline over the last 2 years or so, but has really gotten bad in the last year. She was living alone and was diagnosed with dementia. About 6 months later, she broke both hips and recovered in a memory care assisted living facility. This week my dad said she started having seizures while having lunch and is no longer able to feed herself cause her hands don't function anymore. He said they've put her on morphine for any pain she may be in, and they don't expect her to last long from this point. I have so much guilt because I haven't gotten the courage to visit her since she was admitted to the assisted living facility last year, and I'm so afraid to see how she's deteriorated since the last time I saw her. I feel so terrible. My parents have been visiting her and they said the care team love her so much, and will be there when she passes. I am afraid that if I don't go see her now I'll regret it, but then I'm afraid of the trauma associated with seeing her like this. I am so torn and sad and feel like a bad grandchild.