Hi Magic, I hope you have stopped crying now, like I say to my granddaughter when she's not well " please dont cry darling, it makes your head hurt "
You really need to get your dad into emergency respite while your OH is on holiday and get some family time so you can enjoy your baby and not just look after it.
Day care is not enough you are exhausted,did some-one tell you you were super woman in another life, 4hrs, I bet you spend that time playing catch up instead of a relaxing time on your own or with the baby.
I couldn't believe you on the escalator with your dad and a baby
crying out loud, is there no lift.
I hope you can get the help Magic, at this rate your family will be the ones needing help.
Try to get your dad back to his consultant for help, meantime the meds your Dr has given you will be fine, he wont give them out long enough to get anyone addicted, my OH was on Triazapam, "probably not spelt right" at one time and when things settled his Dr weened him off.
Hope things improve for you soon. (((((big big hugs)))))
Take care
Love Lynn xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx