Some of you will not know that as well as looking after my Mum who has AZ and lives in a granny annexe with us, my husband and both children (now 20 and 19) are also disabled so my plate overfloweth a bit.
Anyway the last few weeks have been very hard Mum is deteriorating and one of my husbands conditions had flared up quite badly and he has a lump on his neck whcich he has been referred for an urgent scan about.
Over the years I've been on and off anti depressants, and treatment for blood pressure. Some times I feel if I don't take them I might die and then I;d get a rest (though I know in my heart I don't really want that to happen if that makes sense).
I saw my GP yesterday and she was very supportive but I confessed another problems to her it's pretty disgusting, but I'm sure I'm not the only one who does it. If I get a cut or bote or whatever I pick at it relentlessly. I have had the urge to iniate self harm, but have only done that once. Mainly it's a case of worrying at old wounds. I'm really pleased that I have shared this with my GP she was very understanding and no I have ahred it with you because I know I have to face it right on if Im want to beat it, and telling others seems to help. Sorry if it repulses you it repulses me too.
I have also agreed to go back on the anti-D's too, and have had the first dose today, and just like last time I've had immense stomach cramp, sickness, diarorhea, sweats and muscle weakness. I had all this last time and was told to stick with it as they would help (old GP). Why do I have to suffer even more just so can acrry on caring.......grrrrrrr!!!!
Thanaks for listening.
Anyway the last few weeks have been very hard Mum is deteriorating and one of my husbands conditions had flared up quite badly and he has a lump on his neck whcich he has been referred for an urgent scan about.
Over the years I've been on and off anti depressants, and treatment for blood pressure. Some times I feel if I don't take them I might die and then I;d get a rest (though I know in my heart I don't really want that to happen if that makes sense).
I saw my GP yesterday and she was very supportive but I confessed another problems to her it's pretty disgusting, but I'm sure I'm not the only one who does it. If I get a cut or bote or whatever I pick at it relentlessly. I have had the urge to iniate self harm, but have only done that once. Mainly it's a case of worrying at old wounds. I'm really pleased that I have shared this with my GP she was very understanding and no I have ahred it with you because I know I have to face it right on if Im want to beat it, and telling others seems to help. Sorry if it repulses you it repulses me too.
I have also agreed to go back on the anti-D's too, and have had the first dose today, and just like last time I've had immense stomach cramp, sickness, diarorhea, sweats and muscle weakness. I had all this last time and was told to stick with it as they would help (old GP). Why do I have to suffer even more just so can acrry on caring.......grrrrrrr!!!!
Thanaks for listening.