This week, after 3 sleepless nights with my Dad, not just getting up, but also waking me up every time, because he didn't know where he was, I have made the decision to put him into a full time care home.
I'm sat here now crying because I feel so horrible, but I just can't cope. I have mental health problems, and my brother has learning difficulties, we have been through dementia before, as we cared for our Mum for 9 years, and earlier this year I supported my older brother when he was diagnosed with terminal cancer, he died in my arms on the 31st of March, and his death caused a massive decline in my Dads dementia, so he's now at a point where I just can't cope anymore.
The guilt is building inside of me like a volcano that's about to erupt, it feels like I've abandoned him, and I don't know what to do.
I'm sat here now crying because I feel so horrible, but I just can't cope. I have mental health problems, and my brother has learning difficulties, we have been through dementia before, as we cared for our Mum for 9 years, and earlier this year I supported my older brother when he was diagnosed with terminal cancer, he died in my arms on the 31st of March, and his death caused a massive decline in my Dads dementia, so he's now at a point where I just can't cope anymore.
The guilt is building inside of me like a volcano that's about to erupt, it feels like I've abandoned him, and I don't know what to do.