Sat night - go out have a meal with friends share a barbie or just relax after a hard week - no such luck !!!!!!!!
What do I do OH has gone to family in Dorset because I cannot cope anymore - have spent the last three weeks being abused and insulted and accused of robbing him blind and the most dreadful thing ever to happen to him. I do not know where to go from here - too much wine and roses to make sense of anything anymore. I know nothing of this horrendous disease and have little idea how to deal with it. Why am I the guilty party here I didn't cause this to happen and it's not my fault so why should I be threatened with being pushed down the stairs or poisened with weedkiller because he is paraniod. I am so unhappy I cannot even put it into words.
I really need some support but where does it come from nobody seems to understand I cannot do this anymore I would rather put an end to it now - the thought of more years like this is untenable I am a coward of the first order but I have dealt with this for 6 years now and it has become unbearable - WHAT DO I DO ???????????????????
The future is a scary thing and I cry all the time because I used to be a brave, intelligent and caring person and now I hate me and him OMG ............
What do I do OH has gone to family in Dorset because I cannot cope anymore - have spent the last three weeks being abused and insulted and accused of robbing him blind and the most dreadful thing ever to happen to him. I do not know where to go from here - too much wine and roses to make sense of anything anymore. I know nothing of this horrendous disease and have little idea how to deal with it. Why am I the guilty party here I didn't cause this to happen and it's not my fault so why should I be threatened with being pushed down the stairs or poisened with weedkiller because he is paraniod. I am so unhappy I cannot even put it into words.
I really need some support but where does it come from nobody seems to understand I cannot do this anymore I would rather put an end to it now - the thought of more years like this is untenable I am a coward of the first order but I have dealt with this for 6 years now and it has become unbearable - WHAT DO I DO ???????????????????
The future is a scary thing and I cry all the time because I used to be a brave, intelligent and caring person and now I hate me and him OMG ............