I don’t really know where to start, my dad who lives in France was diagnosed with dementia a year and a half ago. His partner and I knew for a while so we’re relieved to be able to put a label on things. The relief was short lived, as it seems that in the last 8 months things have really started going downhill fast. Repeating himself, getting lost, denial, disorientated, forgetting names, people, places, events, etc...
I unfortunately do not live in France and have not been exposed to his deteriorating state as much as his partner. sadly it has become too much for her, so much so that she has left him. She still cares for him remotely, sorts his bills, is involved with French social carers and sees him regularly. I don’t blame her, I’m sad for him and her, but having seen the way he was treating her and the toll it was taking on her she did what she had to do to stay sane. My dad has not always been the easiest of people, he’s a rather selfish and self centred man who’s always gotten by by charming people and manipulating them. It appears the dementia has stripped him of the ability to hide his selfishness and now it’s almost like he’s become a sort of pure narcissist. Not in a malevolent way, hejust can’t seem to be able to balance things anymore.
I offered his partner to look after him this Christmas, thinking I would offer her a break as she is almost out of resilience, and felt I had a bit left in the tank.
For context I’m a 36 year old man who is also a full time carer for my girlfriend who is sadly dealing with terminal cancer. She’s quite stable but the prognosis is not good, needless to say I’m feeling pretty stressed out. Taking care of dad was a mistake, I can’t seem to be able to react calmly to him anymore. He has become so aggressive, equally I have found myself become very short with him, I’ve never been a patient man but this is destroying me. It’s only been a week and today I lost my cool with him. I was trying to help him sort out some medication and after an hour of patiently trying to help he suddenly turned on me. I’m rather fiery and instead of taking on the chin I erupted and walked out, merry ******* Christmas....
I don’t know what to do, I know he’s not really my dad anymore, I know this but I haven’t accepted it yet. I can’t seem to manage my expectations of him, at times he’s coherent and others he’s just impossible. I love him as my dad but I hate what he has become. I guess I’m just venting on this and not sure there’s much that can be done, I feel so ******* guilty for having got angry at him. I promised myself to be more
Forgiving and patient but I’m struggling, I’m scared of the future and just feel a bit hopeless, what a **** Christmas...
I unfortunately do not live in France and have not been exposed to his deteriorating state as much as his partner. sadly it has become too much for her, so much so that she has left him. She still cares for him remotely, sorts his bills, is involved with French social carers and sees him regularly. I don’t blame her, I’m sad for him and her, but having seen the way he was treating her and the toll it was taking on her she did what she had to do to stay sane. My dad has not always been the easiest of people, he’s a rather selfish and self centred man who’s always gotten by by charming people and manipulating them. It appears the dementia has stripped him of the ability to hide his selfishness and now it’s almost like he’s become a sort of pure narcissist. Not in a malevolent way, hejust can’t seem to be able to balance things anymore.
I offered his partner to look after him this Christmas, thinking I would offer her a break as she is almost out of resilience, and felt I had a bit left in the tank.
For context I’m a 36 year old man who is also a full time carer for my girlfriend who is sadly dealing with terminal cancer. She’s quite stable but the prognosis is not good, needless to say I’m feeling pretty stressed out. Taking care of dad was a mistake, I can’t seem to be able to react calmly to him anymore. He has become so aggressive, equally I have found myself become very short with him, I’ve never been a patient man but this is destroying me. It’s only been a week and today I lost my cool with him. I was trying to help him sort out some medication and after an hour of patiently trying to help he suddenly turned on me. I’m rather fiery and instead of taking on the chin I erupted and walked out, merry ******* Christmas....
I don’t know what to do, I know he’s not really my dad anymore, I know this but I haven’t accepted it yet. I can’t seem to manage my expectations of him, at times he’s coherent and others he’s just impossible. I love him as my dad but I hate what he has become. I guess I’m just venting on this and not sure there’s much that can be done, I feel so ******* guilty for having got angry at him. I promised myself to be more
Forgiving and patient but I’m struggling, I’m scared of the future and just feel a bit hopeless, what a **** Christmas...