I supposed it had to happen but Ron went into the Nursing Home on a permanent basis yesterday and so I am feeling all the usual things. People say I shouldn't feel guilty but you really feel as though you have let them down somehow and that you should have coped. My one consolation is that he has gone in the home where he has had 2 respite visits. The staff are lovely and I think I have mentioned before that the respite chances in the future where pretty slim as they don't keep beds open specially.My daughter says" look at it as Reverse Respite and he can always come home for a weekend instead" I shall still keep in touch and carry on reading the forum almost daily. My article in the paper is going to be photo-copied and distributed round the Carer's Group that I go to.