i too certainly know your feelings,breaks my heart seeing a lovely lady whos given her total life to me her son (me),her time,her knowing shes provided financially,,her devoted love always,now just content and happy when im sat with her,,,but im not her son no more main of the time,,im her brother,,her husband,,,she sometimes calls me nana,,many times asking where her son is,,to which i say alsorts,,as to her hes still a little boy,,,she always finishs with look after him always wont ya,,,,
my eyes are full of tears as i write,,,,,
we all need to be strong,,,just keep putting on the mask,and saying the show must go on,,never drop our gaurd,,,just make it as normal as possible 4 those dear ald pals of ours whos give so much,,
as to mourning after,,,yes im sure ill be sad,,but at least ill comfort myself in knowing i did my best,,,and shes battled az and won,,,and at peace,,
love to you all..xxxx