So long story short, my Mum got diagnosed with early onset Alzheimers 5 years ago, when I was 16. I am now 21, and she is 61. She rapidly declined and now is at the severe stage where she's more like a child than an adult.
Throughout my life I have had to make sacrifices. I wanted to do a Medicine degree, I got accepted for it etc, but had to decline because it would have been too big an impact on the family. I am now doing a Pharmacy degree in Cardiff (which I do enjoy), but I am having to restrict my life to move back home to Portsmouth in order to help care for her. This is all fine, and is just an aspect of life (although I obviously wish it were different). I cannot have a relationship because it takes up too much of my time/people don't understand, but if I complain about it even slightly to those who don't have an experience of this they call me attention seeking because 'everyone has problems'.
I have to come home a lot to help my Dad out because he's had to increase his work hours to make up for the loss of money we had. My Mum was a teacher, and her retiring young was a very messy affair. I'm in my third year of University out of four, but this is widely considered to be the most important year because job offers are made this summer so grades are very important. I have extenuating circumstances, which has helped in the past where things have taken a drastic turn for the worse, but right now it doesn't feel like enough.
However, here's the catch - I have three siblings, and their life doesn't seem impacted in the slightest. I'm sure it probably is, because they were always much closer to my Mum than I was, but where the hell are they?! My older sister (31) lives away from home but never visits. My older brother (29) lives in the same city, is getting married and also never visits. My little brother (18) works part time but doesn't do anything to help around the house. I've mentioned before that I'm not coping with the house cleaning and feeding/washing her along with other aspects of my life but no one seems to listen.
My friends try to understand but in reality they can't know how difficult this is. I essentially act like a primary carer who lives 3 hours away but I feel like I'm at the stage of life that will have the most impact on my 'proper' adult life and I can't fulfil it to the same potential that they can. Sure, my little brother is 18 and is probably just as upset as I am, but he lives in his room and throws her out when he tries to come in. I spoke to my Dad about this and he just got upset with me and said that I'm able to escape but he's stuck with this forever.
My Nan had Alzheimers, and died about 3 months before my Mum was diagnosed. My Mum did all of the caring for that when her brothers didn't visit my Nan for years, and I feel like I've lost the life I could have had because my siblings seem to be ignoring the problem.
Is there anyone else out there who's having the same problems as me? I can appreciate that having a partner with Alzheimers is difficult in different ways, ie losing the one person you care about, but I had a quick look around the forum and I couldn't find anyone close to my position. I don't know what to do.. I don't want to resent her. She's my Mother.
Throughout my life I have had to make sacrifices. I wanted to do a Medicine degree, I got accepted for it etc, but had to decline because it would have been too big an impact on the family. I am now doing a Pharmacy degree in Cardiff (which I do enjoy), but I am having to restrict my life to move back home to Portsmouth in order to help care for her. This is all fine, and is just an aspect of life (although I obviously wish it were different). I cannot have a relationship because it takes up too much of my time/people don't understand, but if I complain about it even slightly to those who don't have an experience of this they call me attention seeking because 'everyone has problems'.
I have to come home a lot to help my Dad out because he's had to increase his work hours to make up for the loss of money we had. My Mum was a teacher, and her retiring young was a very messy affair. I'm in my third year of University out of four, but this is widely considered to be the most important year because job offers are made this summer so grades are very important. I have extenuating circumstances, which has helped in the past where things have taken a drastic turn for the worse, but right now it doesn't feel like enough.
However, here's the catch - I have three siblings, and their life doesn't seem impacted in the slightest. I'm sure it probably is, because they were always much closer to my Mum than I was, but where the hell are they?! My older sister (31) lives away from home but never visits. My older brother (29) lives in the same city, is getting married and also never visits. My little brother (18) works part time but doesn't do anything to help around the house. I've mentioned before that I'm not coping with the house cleaning and feeding/washing her along with other aspects of my life but no one seems to listen.
My friends try to understand but in reality they can't know how difficult this is. I essentially act like a primary carer who lives 3 hours away but I feel like I'm at the stage of life that will have the most impact on my 'proper' adult life and I can't fulfil it to the same potential that they can. Sure, my little brother is 18 and is probably just as upset as I am, but he lives in his room and throws her out when he tries to come in. I spoke to my Dad about this and he just got upset with me and said that I'm able to escape but he's stuck with this forever.
My Nan had Alzheimers, and died about 3 months before my Mum was diagnosed. My Mum did all of the caring for that when her brothers didn't visit my Nan for years, and I feel like I've lost the life I could have had because my siblings seem to be ignoring the problem.
Is there anyone else out there who's having the same problems as me? I can appreciate that having a partner with Alzheimers is difficult in different ways, ie losing the one person you care about, but I had a quick look around the forum and I couldn't find anyone close to my position. I don't know what to do.. I don't want to resent her. She's my Mother.