Hi guys,
I want to run something across you.
Mum is slipping quickly and relentlessly from being somewhat mentally able to inhabiting lalaland. I try to understand the process. The obsessing, the absolute mental inflexibility she sometimes now indulges in (e.g. confabulation or her version of events are correct, it is me who has memory problems!), and the utter loss of a grasp on language, concepts and so on.
Yesterday she was obsessing. Wants this done now. Now. Now. Now. While she can't remember anything for 30 seconds, she remembers perfectly well that she wants X done now. Now. Now. Now. Do it. Fuss. Fuss. Fuss.
When we do whatever she wants, there is no gratitude or relief. She just obsesses on something else.
I notice that Obsession seems to herald further slippage into confusion. Just as Mum was chronically obsessing yesterday, today she is more confused and lost than ever before.
My theory: Could Obsession be a counterpoint to Confusion? Could her grasping on to some need/want/idea be her way of forging a path, finding an anchor (the obsessive thought) in a rising tide of confusion?
If you don't know what a tea bag is for, if you don't know what a newspaper is, perhaps there is genuine comfort in fixating on wanting a plant dug up out of the garden. Dig it up now. Now. Now.
I wonder if Obsession is a mental anchor in a sea of Confusion. Is it? What do you think? Any reactions gratefully received. Thanks. All the best, make the most of today, BE
I want to run something across you.
Mum is slipping quickly and relentlessly from being somewhat mentally able to inhabiting lalaland. I try to understand the process. The obsessing, the absolute mental inflexibility she sometimes now indulges in (e.g. confabulation or her version of events are correct, it is me who has memory problems!), and the utter loss of a grasp on language, concepts and so on.
Yesterday she was obsessing. Wants this done now. Now. Now. Now. While she can't remember anything for 30 seconds, she remembers perfectly well that she wants X done now. Now. Now. Now. Do it. Fuss. Fuss. Fuss.
When we do whatever she wants, there is no gratitude or relief. She just obsesses on something else.
I notice that Obsession seems to herald further slippage into confusion. Just as Mum was chronically obsessing yesterday, today she is more confused and lost than ever before.
My theory: Could Obsession be a counterpoint to Confusion? Could her grasping on to some need/want/idea be her way of forging a path, finding an anchor (the obsessive thought) in a rising tide of confusion?
If you don't know what a tea bag is for, if you don't know what a newspaper is, perhaps there is genuine comfort in fixating on wanting a plant dug up out of the garden. Dig it up now. Now. Now.
I wonder if Obsession is a mental anchor in a sea of Confusion. Is it? What do you think? Any reactions gratefully received. Thanks. All the best, make the most of today, BE