hi
I was pleased to read these posts as they expresss what I'm feeling. My mother in law was diagnosed with vascular dementia in September after being admitted to hospital following being sectioned. She is dominating my life. She is a widow and my partner is an only child and I feel like I have become the sister he doesn't have. I have never been particularly close to MIL and I suppose I resent the impact she is making on my life. It was decided while she was in hospital that she should go back to her own home, although she says she wants to go back to the home she lived in 70 years ago because thats home. She has carers 4 times a day, but still doesn't eat properly, doesn't wash and puts her dirty clothes back in the drawers. She tells stories constantly, which drives me mad, blames things that she does on an imaginary naughty 5year old boy that apparently visits, although he has no name. After visiting her it takes me hours to get back to normal, I'm having trouble sleeping, have a constant headache and recently had to turn down the opportunity to take a promotion at work, which would have resulted in a substantial increase in pay, because I feel incapable of coping with new information because my brain is taken up with MIL. I'm the one who is dealing with the SW, the CPN, sorting out everything. She wont go to daycare even though she enjoys when we can get her there and when she refuses to go, its me the SW calls and expects me to get out of work to do a 20 miles round trip to take her. Before coming out of hospital the SW said she would go to respite for 2 weeks every 6 weeks, but when the care plan came that wasn't in it and I feel that they just said anything to get us to agree, rather than her go to supported housing or residential care which would have been better for her. She is lonely and isolated where she is.
I just feel under pressure all the time, how do you get to the point where you can just let everything go over your head?
This is the first time that I have realised that other people are having almost identical experiences to me, even if the detail is not quite the same.
Sorry to ramble!