Hi everyone.
After 5 seemingly long years of the EOA diagnosis, my dad is being prepared for end of life care. I live 5 hours away from him and my mum, I've been to visit them since we were told about this but I just don't think I can cope with seeing him in the state he was again. I thought I had come to terms with the diagnosis and prepared myself for this moment but I am just filled with this anger and resentment, I'm so angry at how unfair life is and trying to go to work and carry on life as normal is so hard. I feel like I've built up a wall, I've been aggressive towards my partner and intolerant with people at work, I don't feel like I have anyone who could possibly understand this feeling. I feel like I'm in limbo, waiting for the telephone call that he's passed. This disease is so cruel, wishing your father would die at the age of 23 just so he can be at peace is so unnatural.
If anyone has any insight into how to deal with this period of time, I would be so grateful.
After 5 seemingly long years of the EOA diagnosis, my dad is being prepared for end of life care. I live 5 hours away from him and my mum, I've been to visit them since we were told about this but I just don't think I can cope with seeing him in the state he was again. I thought I had come to terms with the diagnosis and prepared myself for this moment but I am just filled with this anger and resentment, I'm so angry at how unfair life is and trying to go to work and carry on life as normal is so hard. I feel like I've built up a wall, I've been aggressive towards my partner and intolerant with people at work, I don't feel like I have anyone who could possibly understand this feeling. I feel like I'm in limbo, waiting for the telephone call that he's passed. This disease is so cruel, wishing your father would die at the age of 23 just so he can be at peace is so unnatural.
If anyone has any insight into how to deal with this period of time, I would be so grateful.