Feel very sad and upset today
Mum said last night when I called round that she wished I had died when my dad did! (meaning me not herself!)
Now I know you are all going to say "it's nother it's the illnesss" and I know this myself but it is so so hard to hear those words coming from you own mothers mouth! I cried all night because I feel even though it is the illness, but that is obviously how she currently feels about me, her daughter! She hates me being in her house, and as soon as I walk through the back door, she is up on her feet hitting me round the head telling me to "get out get out I don't want you here"!! She actually clawed my husbands face the other night when we went round.
I do absolutely nothing for her at present. No meals no tablets no washing - nothing. Fortunately my brother goes every day and he is doing it all now. I p[ersonally feel she should be ina home for her own good (and possibly for my brothers own good!!) but he says he wants to keep her at home and he is OK doing everything for her. He works himself full time and has a young family so I feel guilty on two counts, 1 because I don't dfo anything for mum and 2, because it is all being left to my brother.
know there is nothing anyone can do but I just needed to "talk to someone"
Thanks for listening!
Maggie x
Mum said last night when I called round that she wished I had died when my dad did! (meaning me not herself!)
Now I know you are all going to say "it's nother it's the illnesss" and I know this myself but it is so so hard to hear those words coming from you own mothers mouth! I cried all night because I feel even though it is the illness, but that is obviously how she currently feels about me, her daughter! She hates me being in her house, and as soon as I walk through the back door, she is up on her feet hitting me round the head telling me to "get out get out I don't want you here"!! She actually clawed my husbands face the other night when we went round.
I do absolutely nothing for her at present. No meals no tablets no washing - nothing. Fortunately my brother goes every day and he is doing it all now. I p[ersonally feel she should be ina home for her own good (and possibly for my brothers own good!!) but he says he wants to keep her at home and he is OK doing everything for her. He works himself full time and has a young family so I feel guilty on two counts, 1 because I don't dfo anything for mum and 2, because it is all being left to my brother.
know there is nothing anyone can do but I just needed to "talk to someone"
Thanks for listening!
Maggie x