Hiya, this is my first time posting, but i think i've got to the stage where i need some help. My mum hasn't yet been diagnosed mainly because i can't get her to go to the doctor (she doesn't think she has a problem).
Mums living with me as she can't cope being on her own, but i'm finding it so hard to cope myself. I think i've done the wrong thing having her move in. I can't go anywhere on my own, when i do go out for a few hours alone or with friends, shes waiting on the doorstep for me, moaning that i've been too long, and that shes been bored and fed up. If i leave the room she comes looking for me, she comes into my room at night, so i'm not getting any proper sleep. My doctors solution was to give me sleeping pills but i don't want to go down that road. I'm already taking antidepressents but they don't seem to be helping.
On Sunday night we had the most awful argument, it started because I was cleaning the house, she said some terrible things to me and i'm ashamed to say I said some awful things back. It got so bad i was having a panic attack, I couldn't breathe, I was shaking so much I thought I was going to pass out, but all she did was scream at me, telling me i'm selfish, spiteful and uncaring. All i wanted to do was mop the floor. Although she started the arguement, she turned it all around to be my fault and in the end i just agreed with her to get some peace and to be left alone, but she still couldn't let it drop, I,m at the end of my tether, i just don't know where to turn.
I don't know what to do now, I get no help from my family, my brother,s head is buried so far in the sand he,s comming up in Australlia, he thinks if he doen't see it or accept theres anything wrong it isn't happening, in his words he "can't handle the stress", I wish I had that luxuary.
I'm sorry to have rambled on and on, but its helped just writing it down.
Thank you
Sharon
Mums living with me as she can't cope being on her own, but i'm finding it so hard to cope myself. I think i've done the wrong thing having her move in. I can't go anywhere on my own, when i do go out for a few hours alone or with friends, shes waiting on the doorstep for me, moaning that i've been too long, and that shes been bored and fed up. If i leave the room she comes looking for me, she comes into my room at night, so i'm not getting any proper sleep. My doctors solution was to give me sleeping pills but i don't want to go down that road. I'm already taking antidepressents but they don't seem to be helping.
On Sunday night we had the most awful argument, it started because I was cleaning the house, she said some terrible things to me and i'm ashamed to say I said some awful things back. It got so bad i was having a panic attack, I couldn't breathe, I was shaking so much I thought I was going to pass out, but all she did was scream at me, telling me i'm selfish, spiteful and uncaring. All i wanted to do was mop the floor. Although she started the arguement, she turned it all around to be my fault and in the end i just agreed with her to get some peace and to be left alone, but she still couldn't let it drop, I,m at the end of my tether, i just don't know where to turn.
I don't know what to do now, I get no help from my family, my brother,s head is buried so far in the sand he,s comming up in Australlia, he thinks if he doen't see it or accept theres anything wrong it isn't happening, in his words he "can't handle the stress", I wish I had that luxuary.
I'm sorry to have rambled on and on, but its helped just writing it down.
Thank you
Sharon