Tonight, i was putting to bed my mum, the usual routine, and out of the blue, she called me a hatefull bustard, and said that she's going to tell the authorities and get us all sacked (me) .
Now im not usually affected by her acid tongue, shes 85 and got severe dementia and hardly any metal comprehension left, but when she wants to, she can give it to me good, and boy does she let rip! Usually its like water off a ducks back, but tonight i dont know why, but i let her words get to me, and i got really upset.
I litterally do everything for that woman, she cant do much herself, not anymore, and i put up with her rubbish day in day out, all times of the day and night, and for most of it, i stay mute, and i walk away, i try not to give her the ammunition.
Its nights like this, that make me ask myself ," what am i doing this for" and i feel like jacking it in and sticking her into a care home, but then if i did that, id be giving up, I'd be letting her down, and I'd be letting her win, and thats not going to happen. Obviously she will go into a care home once she becomes too much for me to handle and the desease worsens, she wont be aware by then, and im not a martyr.
Thanks for listening, i just needed a rant.
Now im not usually affected by her acid tongue, shes 85 and got severe dementia and hardly any metal comprehension left, but when she wants to, she can give it to me good, and boy does she let rip! Usually its like water off a ducks back, but tonight i dont know why, but i let her words get to me, and i got really upset.
I litterally do everything for that woman, she cant do much herself, not anymore, and i put up with her rubbish day in day out, all times of the day and night, and for most of it, i stay mute, and i walk away, i try not to give her the ammunition.
Its nights like this, that make me ask myself ," what am i doing this for" and i feel like jacking it in and sticking her into a care home, but then if i did that, id be giving up, I'd be letting her down, and I'd be letting her win, and thats not going to happen. Obviously she will go into a care home once she becomes too much for me to handle and the desease worsens, she wont be aware by then, and im not a martyr.
Thanks for listening, i just needed a rant.