Thank you everyone, you have all been so very kind.
Mum will be making her final journey on Wednesday, I have arranged everything just how she wanted, because God love her, she made sure I knew every little detail, and now I thank her for her wisdom in doing that, at the time, all those years ago, it was the last thing I wanted to hear, but I have to say mum knew I would not be capable of any rational thoughts right now the pain is just unbearable.