Mum did not wake up yesterday morning.
After more than ten years of dementia, I felt I could see her girlishly skipping and happily side kicking her way towards my Dad and my brother calling "I'm free! I'm free!".
Already people are saying what a relief it must be for me. But I am not relieved. I am devastated. I miss her so very very very much. And I realise that I am now also grieving for my Dad and brother which I couldn't really do until now.
I don't know whether I will be posting on TP again or not. But I want to say thank you so much for all the discussion and information and sharing on here. My life looking after Mum was hugely better because of you.
After more than ten years of dementia, I felt I could see her girlishly skipping and happily side kicking her way towards my Dad and my brother calling "I'm free! I'm free!".
Already people are saying what a relief it must be for me. But I am not relieved. I am devastated. I miss her so very very very much. And I realise that I am now also grieving for my Dad and brother which I couldn't really do until now.
I don't know whether I will be posting on TP again or not. But I want to say thank you so much for all the discussion and information and sharing on here. My life looking after Mum was hugely better because of you.